hard day's night

It's been a weird day. I was horizontal for ninety percent of the actual daylight hours. I haven't actually slept in three nights, and I just feel so drained. I feel like there are a trillion more productive things to do than watch two movies in the morning and have a three hour afternoon nap.

I spent a lot of time thinking. I can't figure out the difference between settling and compromise. That's been bothering me for years. What bothers me even more is having to figure out everything for myself. I wish someone could just tell me all of the answers. I remember a time when there was.

I have been hanging out with my sister's cat. I've decided I should move out of my parents' basement, get some cats, a budgie and a pug and live happily ever after.

I feel all cried out, now. And ready to watch five consecutive episodes of What Not To Wear.